One night when I was once again playing "sneaky Tash," I found myself laying down enjoying the various shows on TV, when to my surprised my dad turned to the freaking scariest movie I have ever seen in my whole life. I honestly don't think anything has ever freaked my out as much as that movie, and LOTS and LOTS of things freak me out. This movie was about this guy who had HUGE BEETLES crawling under his skin. Yeah I know. I remember vividly it showing a beetle crawling down his arm, under his skin that ate itself out of his hand. Eww eww ewwwww.
I think the area of life that this had the biggest impact on was childbirth. I know that sounds weird, so let me explain. Even since I was little, there was always a baby in the family, or on the way. So I always got to feel my little siblings move around inside my moms belly. This always scared me a little bit, not because I didn't like feeling the babies kick my hand, but more because I had the realization that one day I would have a child and it was going to move inside of me. Whenever I thought about being a mom, I couldn't help but see that beetle crawling up the guys arm. And I felt horrible about it!
Well, as you guys all know, Natasha Craig is expecting a little baby Craig soon and I'll admit, I was kinda scared about the first time I would feel it move. Because, I couldn't see myself excited to feel something move inside of me! But, I was pleasantly surprised when I felt the first kick from my little baby. I did not feel even an ounce of fear rush into my body, instead it was this incredible rush of love that entered my soul!
Now, if I don't feel my baby moving constantly I freak out a bit! I can't count how many times I have tapped on my belly saying, "Baby Craig? You there? Wake up Baby Craig!" And the wonderful little kick I get in return is the least scary, most special, most spiritual and comforting realization that I have a special, beautiful, little person inside me that I get to call my very own. :)